His entire life James Potter had wanted love. He longed to have someone to call his own and wanted the same for himself. When he gets it he can't understand why it doesn't feel like the big fireworks show everyone talks about. Then he meets Regulus Black and things get a little clearer and way more confusing… read here!
rating: teen
word count: 20k
ship: Regulus & James
minor ships: jily and wolfstar
written: September 2023 - January 2024
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“What did you need me for?”
“You just make things feel better,” James mumbles. “You make me feel normal.”
“You’re not normal,” Regulus says.
“You’re not either.”
Regulus shrugs, “I know.”
James sighs, dropping his head on Regulus’ shoulder. He’s just tired more than anything. He wishes this breakup was done with. He wants to be able to love Lily the way he’s capable of, not the way he thinks he needs to. He wants to be able to talk to her for hours without her cutting him off halfway through with a kiss instead. Everyone else might enjoy that. They’d melt at the thought and kiss back with just as much enthusiasm but he doesn’t get it. He’s never going to be able to get it. He needs to tell her. He needs her to understand, but he’s not sure if she’ll ever.
“So this is becoming a thing now?” Regulus asks, setting his head on his.
“If you don’t like it we don’t—“
“No, it’s fine,” Regulus cuts him off.
James smiles, “So I’m growing on you then?”
“Absolutely not,” Regulus answers dryly. “You’re nothing to me.”
James laughs shortly, “Right.”
